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Everyone is so god damned fake. You say you missed me, and then make no hesitation to leave me once more. I try to open up and talk about things I've bottled, things that have begun to fester inside, but then anyone I try to let any of it out to disappears. I think I'm really losing it.

My scars make shadows upon my wrists. Small, but just enough to make them pop, enough to make them seem even larger than their already noticeable size. As if I needed even more of a reminder, or an enhancement to the same reminder, of what I already regret and want to pretend isn't there, or ever was.

I lie awake these recent nights, sobbing, reaching out for anyone who isn't there beside me. Each time I open my tear-clouded eyes and witness firsthand the predictable emptiness, I curl up, remembering that my hope was pitifully vain.

Smiles, everywhere. Not one for me, never one upon me. My invisibility proves its existence every day I arrive at school. I did not wish for this. I never wanted this. My half-existence is truly the meaning of being alone in a crowd. And with this, we return to the point of human falsity.

Fake. Every god damned person.

Alone. Every fucking day.
Large social situations really bring out the worst in me. I'm still trying to figure out why.
killerweinerdog Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014
Personally, I've come to the conclusion that humans, every one of us, are bastards. We're capable of great evil, and honestly every day, especially since I'm going into law enforcement and have to study this kind of crap, humanity finds a new way to disgust me with the kinds of things we do to each other. At the same time, though, we're capable of great good, so I feel like there's a sort of balance in the works, but still. Not really sure if that applies to the above. 
randomfreakygothgirl Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014  Professional General Artist
Not really what I was getting at, it's more of just an observation and reflection about things happening around me and whatnot.
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